Friday, 26 August 2016

Memories - short story

Standing on the road, smoking a menthol cigarette the building looked tired. Like it had seen better days. Callum was looking at me not the motel with an expression on his face I couldn't read. He has been looking at me like that since I met him, everyday the same expression, not all the day but there is never a day that that face didn't appear suddenly. As I finished smoking the cigarette Callum put his arm over my shoulders and I snuggled close to him. There was a chilling breeze and I hadn't thought to bring a coat. We had been walking for hours, since the car had broken down about five miles back. No cars had driven past in two hours, not another soul had we seen. I was just thankful that we were having a good day. And by that I mean we weren't an inch from ripping each others throats out. We had met at a shitty motel like the one we were standing in front of. He had been staring at me the whole time I had been unpacking my car, it was the same expression I still couldn't read. Just an expression and depending on my own mood it could make me feel hated by the whole world or loved more than anything by this one person. Today it was the latter. I smiled into his neck as he pulled me round in front of him wrapping both arms tight around me. Then as he slowly moved his face in front of mine he touched his lips against mine so lightly I almost didn't feel it pulling back he looked into me then his lips came crashing against mine. We stood in our own little bubble of passion until a car horn sounded, I spun around suddenly and he looked over me. There in the road was a tow truck with the car hitched on the back. After explaining that the car was ours we got into the truck with the driver. That car was our prize possession, the vintage light blue always caught the light perfectly. We had bought it together about a year before it broke down. Callum's arm rested on my shoulder, leaning into him and taking one last look in the rear view mirror at the motel that had no memories at all.


Wednesday, 27 July 2016


while lying in my bed about 2 seconds ago I was just thinking about me. I recently wore weird mouse ears that I got for a pound from Poundland.

I then shaved my head for charity, see here for details.

Now I look like this ^
I don't need to wear the ears, I always like being quirky though I only recently realised how much I used to try. I'm quirky, without trying! and that makes me happy. it's not easy to be happy sometimes. BTW the dye in my hair is CosmicBlue by the Schwarzcoft one. It's permanent. but cute.

BTW raised £2000 + for WAY - Widowed and Young. thank you Norton College, the boys who waxed their legs for the cause. the girls who made up the amazing charity team, the teachers who got soaked and Gemma, thanks for all the help to make that day so successful.


Monday, 20 June 2016

The Lobster (2015) Review

In a dystopian society in the near future, single people must find a mate within 45 days or be transformed into an animal of their choice.
Featuring Colin Farrell and Rachel Weisz

The music in the movie was probably the most fascinating aspect, or so I thought. When there was a chase scene, with Farrell and a woman who strongly reminds me of Ruby Rose, there was no music but during a surgery the music was so intense you would think the doctor was trying to disarm a bomb not do surgery on a patient.
The theme in this movie was also intriguing, the blurb says in the "near" future meaning this is "based" in what, 10 odd years maybe a wee bit more but not much, and to think it puts you into a society where you fall in love due to one common characteristic, or if you don't get turned into the animal of your choice. Farrell character decided on a lobster which I think is really quite an interesting choice because I know if I was asked what animal what I would want to turn into, I'd say maybe a Panda. 
I just realized while writing that it is still pretty weird, all I know is I wouldn't choose a lobster because I am in fact scared of the deep sea... Anyway this movie uses some quite vulgure language but then you have to remember it is classified as a 15 so it is to be expected. I would recommend it so long as you don't mind dead animals...
If you want a movie where they defeat all the bad guys, go against the system and win, go and watch The Hunger Games or The Divergent Trilogy but as someone who as watched the movie, if that is what you are expecting this is not the movie for you.

3.5/5 x

Tuesday, 14 June 2016

The Mermaids Singing by Val McDermid Review

I took me just over a month to read this book, but in my defense I did stop a few times to to read other books like, Picture of Dorian Gray, Mockingjay and the Harry Potter Prequel (3 pages but still). It was fantastic! The way McDermid had written this book is outstanding, she knows what she is writing about and it makes the story brilliant. I am hugely fascinated by psychology as I am studying it as an A Level in 6th Form College. My mentor from school gave me this book saying it's gruesome but you might really enjoy it so I thought why not give it a go! (Thank you Mr. Kirk)
The way McDermid jumps from Tony Hill and the Bradfield police's perspective to the killers fantastic, in my opinion it keeps you on your feet and you are able to see what the poice are at that moment trying to work out. Some of the torture methods used by the killer though was really quite disturbing, and occasionally even giving me a funny tummy but those scenes never lasted long and it was intriguing to see Dr Tony Hill's progression, not only as a character but of his thought process while he was trying to get into the head of Handy Andy.

DI Carol Jordan
Dr Tony Hill
Handy Andy - The Queer Killer / Killer
Penny Burgess - News reporter
ACC John Brandon
+ More Characters, the ones above are just the ones that really caught my attention as characters.

Goodreads rating 5/5!

Photo Credit: Ella Dijle (

Thursday, 5 May 2016

Death Cab for Cutie

I had a free period so naturally I was playing David Bowie out my laptop while doing the Psychology homework that I should have done the weekend before. I was in the Media room and one of the technicians was trying to fix the Macs cause they are 9 years old and pieces of shit. The technician also known as Mr Austin (Nick) was helping my friend when suddenly he said "is this Death Cab for Cutie?" and obviously I got offended and said, "well no, it's Bowie." His reply was "Really it sounds like Death Cab for Cutie. You should listen to them." So I paused my music and opened up the good old YouTube and searched them, the first song I listen to of theirs was 'I Will Follow You into the Dark' I thought it was alright. I continued listing to them now I am obsessed, my favourite song are 'The Ghosts of Beverly Drive' and 'Cath...'!!

Death Cab for Cutie is an American alternative rock band, formed in Bellingham, Washington in 1997.
Newest Album: Kintsugi released March 31st 2015


Sunday, 17 April 2016

Fundraising for WAY


I am going to shave my hair for charity... It'll be scary, and exciting.

The money will be going to the WAY foundation, Widowed and Young which is a charity that supports people who have lost their partners. I lost my dad and it has helped me over the years, I really hope I can get some support in my head shaving.

I have set up a JustGiving page,, also a mobile donation thingy where you text BMWB99 £... to 70070 to donate, all the money will go straight to the charity.

I also created a YouTube video that explain in a bit more detail what I'm doing. Here

I hope I can have your support,
Thanks x

The charity number is 1164988

Tuesday, 29 March 2016

Diamond Rings are Deadly Things by Rachelle J Christensen Review

I was sent this book by in return for an honest review.
I did the bad thing of reading the second book first and the first book second, so a couple of times it took me back to Adri's referral to what had a happened and it caught me out just a few times. If you love plot twists and most strong women in your books this is perfect, I'm 16 and I would recommend this to most girls my age and I know I'm going to be going up to my mum later and begging her to read it.
Throughout this whole book I completely fell again in love with Adri's character but also with Lorea who's the fantastic friend and colleague with no barrier on what she says. Dallas was probably the only character who you saw a great deal of development from my point of view he seemed to escalate quickly from the shy fellow to a more independent man. And throughout the book I was slowly but surely falling for Luke, man the guy I had in my head from the description was good looking.
The storyline kept me hooked and especially in the last few chapters my heart was racing as much as Adri's was described to be, I even started holding my breath and completely caught me in the moment.
This is one of those books where you put it down til you are at the end. And I can't wait for the third one to come out!

Tuesday, 8 March 2016

Becoming Tonks - Nymphadora Lupin

Today I was retold that in the performing arts faculty we were required to dress up as Harry Potter characters for this years World Book Day on the 3rd of March. To begin with I was really torn up, because I didn't know who to go as. Then one of my teachers, Gemma said what about Tonks aka Nymphadora Lupin. I thought that was perfect, unfortunately when asking if I could go all out and dye my hair purple, she still said no, so decision number 1 I'm going to spray purple dye in my hair Thursday morning.
First thing to do is research, GOOGLE!
Today I went to Yorkshire Trading Company and bought black nail polish for £1. And then when I got home I did the courageous thing of going outside to get a wand, which has a pretty pattern on.
My friend Daisy brought in a big greenish coat for me to wear, I also have another coat at home which we found yesterday, I've worked out without seeing them together that they would look quite good together (fingers crossed). After school I'm going to go round the local charity shops and perhaps find a dress or skirt to wear underneath it all. I found my make-up bag and I have my eyeliners and eye shadows ready for tomorrow morning! Also the dyes are ready, I've decided to do a bit of a mixture of both pink and purple because I have both colours.
Thursday Morning.
OMG. So I've done my nails, my hair is purple and pinky although I think I've killed my hair from the hair spray. I've got my red boots on, black jeans, black top that says thieves of NY on it, a witchy cloak thing, the coat I borrowed from my friend, a pentagram necklace and a choker made of ribbon, also make up. It's weird I have my wand ready and my Psychology text book.
Thursday at school.
I looked so much like her, and I was told that by quite a few people though other people did go, and who are you supposed to be? It was so fun our head of 6th form was dressed up as Professor Trelawney and my friend Owen was dressed up as Professor Lockhart, and apart from the hair which was ginger, as opposed to golden.

Need to get:
  • Ripped jeans Black (maybe stripy grey?) 
  • Stripy top
  • More Hair dye 
  • Leather Jacket or something of that sort 
  • Choker of sorts 
  • Black Fingerless gloves
  • Long Black skirt
  • Fishnets 

Honourable Mention 

Saturday, 16 January 2016

Living in my illusion

A while ago I wrote a blog post called "Creating an illusion" (here) And I have decided I want to expand on that rather short post. First... I don't actually remember writing it... secondly... I'm living in slightly less of an illusion, I'm 16 now, I am going to school that I do love slightly more than I used to. All honesty I finished my GCSE years and I wasn't keen but now I am enjoying myself doing the 6th form thing.
My illusion still includes me not having money troubles. Not suffering from losing people. The cat still dislikes me a great deal and the house isn't to my taste, but the kitty did lick me yesterday which I like to think is her way of giving me a wee kiss. I'm also slowly redecorating... This means that what was going on in my head is slowly becoming a reality. It's an illusion coming to life.
I still have my perfect world in my head, my own illusion. And I still believe we all also have this "illusion" of our own, for our own reasons...

Monday, 4 January 2016

Books, Tumblr and New Year

Today while browsing the Tumble instead of doing my Media homework I found a photo that has almost perfectly described this whole holiday from the hour after work after the last day of school til now, I have school tomorrow and I'm currently writing a blog post.

I had a pretty great holiday for the most part, I've read quite a few books, Poirot Investigates by Agatha Christie, Rant by Alfie Crow, The Son of Neptune by Rick Riordan, The Two Towers by J.R.R. Tolkien, The Mark of Athena by Rick Riordan and Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find them by J.K. Rowling. I also went to Edinburgh over Christmas and I even got to spend a day in Glasgow (which is where I grew up).
I got a Kobo Glo HD ereader for Christmas from my nan which I haven't gone any without since I got it. Did you know it has up to 2 months worth of battery with out the backlight on!!

In all honesty I'm not particularly keen on Christmas as I said in my last post but I coped :)
I also forgot to tell the guy at work "Happy New Year" when I went into work on the 1st of January 2016 because basically I forgot I spent the whole of New Years Eve reading and then watching James Bond!

Have a fab new year.