Living in my illusion

A while ago I wrote a blog post called "Creating an illusion" (here) And I have decided I want to expand on that rather short post. First... I don't actually remember writing it... secondly... I'm living in slightly less of an illusion, I'm 16 now, I am going to school that I do love slightly more than I used to. All honesty I finished my GCSE years and I wasn't keen but now I am enjoying myself doing the 6th form thing.
My illusion still includes me not having money troubles. Not suffering from losing people. The cat still dislikes me a great deal and the house isn't to my taste, but the kitty did lick me yesterday which I like to think is her way of giving me a wee kiss. I'm also slowly redecorating... This means that what was going on in my head is slowly becoming a reality. It's an illusion coming to life.
I still have my perfect world in my head, my own illusion. And I still believe we all also have this "illusion" of our own, for our own reasons...

Books, Tumblr and New Year

Today while browsing the Tumble instead of doing my Media homework I found a photo that has almost perfectly described this whole holiday from the hour after work after the last day of school til now, I have school tomorrow and I'm currently writing a blog post.

I had a pretty great holiday for the most part, I've read quite a few books, Poirot Investigates by Agatha Christie, Rant by Alfie Crow, The Son of Neptune by Rick Riordan, The Two Towers by J.R.R. Tolkien, The Mark of Athena by Rick Riordan and Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find them by J.K. Rowling. I also went to Edinburgh over Christmas and I even got to spend a day in Glasgow (which is where I grew up).
I got a Kobo Glo HD ereader for Christmas from my nan which I haven't gone any without since I got it. Did you know it has up to 2 months worth of battery with out the backlight on!!

In all honesty I'm not particularly keen on Christmas as I said in my last post but I coped :)
I also forgot to tell the guy at work "Happy New Year" when I went into work on the 1st of January 2016 because basically I forgot I spent the whole of New Years Eve reading and then watching James Bond!

Have a fab new year.
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A hate for Christmas

So as you may guess from the title I don't like Christmas.
I think it's a money stealing, corporate conspiracy, to drive everyone crazy with fucking shit Christmas carols and make every person in the country broke.

Yeah so I don't like Christmas. I get the sentiment, all that Jesus and god stuff with Bethlehem and the star. But as an atheist I think it's pretty pointless it means I have to waste load of money on cards which will enviably end up in a bin along with 4 million tonnes of wrapping paper world wide just after Christmas, you know how many trees were cut down according to 2012 statistics?

A few million trees cut down in the UK alone imagine world wide, (sorry) including the bloody USA. Over 1 billion trees just for Christmas.

Trees only create oxygen when they are still in the earth other wise they are just creating more carbon dioxide from being disposed of improperly.

Also I don't get paid a lot. £4 per hour for a 16 year old. I only do 6 hours a week, and I have to buy stuff for school and shit + the fact everything is ten times more expensive at Christmas time, life is hard right now.

Anyway have a Shitty Christmas and a Crappy New Year

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Fear of a Bike

You know on those awesome bike trails you get in the hill with the mud, rocks and trees? Well in the summer I went on one of the awesome bike trails you get in the hill with the mud, rocks and trees. And I got lost... Then while cycling down the hill with the faster bit and those cool turns. I genuinely went straight over the handle bars... I'd hit a rock and if I hadn't had a helmet on I 100% would have killed myself, you'd think I'd learnt my lesson but I still go to school on my bike and I do NOT wear a helmet. And there's this turn I have to do, every single time I take this turn I terrify myself for a single second... I am genuinely terrified of my bike right now.... I'll get over it though. :)

The Girl on the Train by Paula Hawkins: Review

I just finished The Girl on the Train and wow I'm sorry but every character in this book was so completely messed up I didn't think it was possible. Apart from that though the book was catching, engaging and kept me up for hours. When I finished it I just sat there for a bit and looked at the cover and I really liked the ending. I really really did!
I was so caught up I literally didn't put it down for a whole day while reading it! I think you have to be careful what age you are when you read it but I thought it was fantastic!!

The characters had so much going on. With the harassment and the lying it was gripping. I don't usually like books written in diary form and jumping from one time to another, but in this book it was so perfect. I had a slight confusion with the dates at one point but over all! WOW I am going to remember this book and what it has brought to my life and I definitely feel I could read a few more of Paula Hawkins' books.

How about a book

Hey.
Been a while, As always.

I have been doing a lot of reading lately. And basically I've been inspired to write a boook. I really want to, I've always wanted to. I never tried though for a few reasons.

1. I used to be scared of people judging me, thinking I was weird or something
2. I always think I wouldn't have the patience to even start
3. All would think my ideas are stupid or even childish
4. I keep telling myself I don't have time
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But recently I moved on.

I dyed my hair green for two months and fell in love with it. People called me weird but I realised I didn't actually care cause it was something I was loved. Also it is my hair and if you don't like the colour look at someone else's god dammed head.

I also went to this festival last week where, while sitting round the main campfire on the first night I met a guy called Hari. He was so funny and amazing. He talked about the world actually being flat and the moon being an illusion. I completely fell in love with the way he talked. We talked all night. When I left the next morning to get some shut eye before the day began he said I hope tonight I met some more weird. My automatic reaction was to turn and say in the most sarcastic way possible "Thannnks", as soon as I said that I realised it was the wrong thing to say. He had said it in the most sincere way possible. We discussed a little more about the pros of being weird and I went off to have breakfast. :)

To be 100% fair I probably still don't have the patience to even start a book but touching on point 4 I do in fact have the rest of my life. It doesn't have to be published before I'm 25.

And as for people thinking my ideas are weird. I've met people. I know there are people who think I belong in an asylum but I also know that the right people would pick up my book. I don't want to write a book for money, so if you get weirded out easily... simple...

don't pick up the book.

Good talk. Want to say anything by all means comment.
xx

Veils and Vengeance by Rachelle J. Christensen: Review

Free copy for review.
I'm 15 and I found it perfect for my age though I do read books that are usually recommended for people slightly older than me.
I immediately feel in love with Adri from the beginning and the way she introduced herself to Jon was fabulous. I did find that this book would have been so little more understandable if I had read the first book in the series (this is the second one) but all the same I did enjoy it a great deal.
I found the imagery in this book fabulous. While reading this I almost felt like I was in Hawaii and when ever Adri went into the sea I got this spark down my spine because I adore swimming in the sea. I also found that the discovery of the body gave me a chill that made me feel exactly how Adri would have felt.
At the beginning of each chapter there was a little recipe for different things that came up in that chapter. ( I can't wait to try and make that "Pineapple Upside Down Cake" on chapter 14)
The ending is fabulous and completely unexpected!!
This was an amazing book over all and I can't wait to read the first one! :)

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The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - Book vs Film

I read The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe this morning and it got me thinking about it and the film (Disney version).
This will contain spoilers for both the film and the book. If you haven't read/slashed watch yet, they are... OMG!!!
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Carrying on... I personally prefer the book. In the film, there is a scene which is filmed in a rocky gorge type thing, here Peter is leading the fight but they are losing people left, right and centre and then they leave - losing half there army. You know they also do this in the 'Prince Caspian'. Neither of these scenes can be found in the book.
It drives me crazy when they cut out good scenes for book to film. But I find it 100% worse than crazy when they ADD extra scenes!! I personally think it's pointless. I hate that they've made it soo much more violent. Not cool!
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But they are both amazing!
The book I give 5/5
The film I give 4/5
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'I, Elizabeth' Review

"Using only Elizabeth's words (adapted from her letters, speeches and other writings), Rebecca Vaughan (Austen's Woman, Female Gothic), continues her successful collaboration with director Guy Masterson (Oliver Award Winning Morecambe), exploring the queen's struggle to reconcile the desires of womanhood with the duties of sovereignty." 
- A Dyad Production

As a fifteen year old who isn't used to any language but modern English, I found that incredibly hard to understand, especially with it being 1hr15 long, it felt it dragged a bit. But with the way this whole performance was set up, despite not being able to understand a lot of it you could really get a feel for what was going on. Using Clamps (see below *) I had some thoughts.

• The costume in this play was a simple posh Elizabethan dress and a red head wig. I found this gave it a historical vibe.
• The lighting was pretty standard but changed between a spotlight and full stage lighting, apart from an occasional, what seemed to be electrical storm, where the lights flickered and there was a sound of power malfunctions, these happened unexpectedly and made the play that little bit more dramatic.
• For the actors, there was only one, Rebecca Vaughan, it was a monologue.
• The make-up again gave it a very historical vibe. She had her whole face covered in white powder and slightly pink lips, also as I said she had a red wig and some very pretty earrings on.
• There were very few props. She had a letter with a red wax seal that she kept waving about (in a very majestic way of course), there was a goblet with who knows what in it, a handkerchief which she wiped her eyes on and very lovely wooden table and chair (she kept flopping on to the chair)
• As for the scenery, there was some red wallpaper (?) hanging at the back and a checkered floor. Nothing overly fancy.

These six things made the play a wonder to watch even though I understood a whole of about ten words. I would just like to say, it's not that I couldn't hear her it simply was that I can't understand Elizabethan.
Over all really enjoyed and I seriously would go and see it again!
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*I'm going to use a thing that I learnt about in Media called 'Mise-en-scène'. In that there is costume, lighting, actors, make-up, props and scenery. Or CLAMPS

Creating an illusion

We live in a world where occasionally we imagine something else to make us feel better or live in a day forgetting an important event.
I do this most days!
I have had some pretty terrible tragedies in my time (it is only 15 years but still). I have lost people like you can't imagine and I have defiantly not coped well. But to anyone I know, I ask you: "Did you notice?"
My illusion includes no money troubles. No lost family. A cat that actually likes me and a house I've fallen in love with. Only in my head though. But if you asked me: "Where do you live?" I wouldn't lie. I just may not tell you the complete truth. Just the bits I actually like.
We all I think live in our little illusions occasionally.
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